One thing at a time...

This weekend I applied to college in the fall. EEK! I'm not sure if that will pan out or not, but I had to take that leap and give myself a chance to see if I can do it. I also shot my, freshly done resume out to several businesses and ads from the Sunday paper's want ads. I'm really not sure where God is going to take me. If I'll be a full time worker, part time student, full time student, part time worker. It's scary. A lot to take on at one time. I want to be a positive example for my kids. I need to be able to show them that I can do this and be ok.

I crash hard every few days. I hope in time that the crashes will be less frequent.

I cannot say enough about the wonderful friends I have supporting me. It's been such a blessing to receive encouragement and support from all corners of the world...literally!!!

It's been that prayer and support that has kept me from staying down. It's what has brought me back to my feet. I'm blessed beyond words. "Thank you" seems so trivial in light of the effect these people have made on my life right now.

I'm tired and I try to focus on the most important task at hand at any given moment. When I allow myself to scatter my thoughts, it's too overwhelming.

Wednesday is the support hearing. He wants for me to retract my request for support, and work on a deal. I am waiting to hear from my lawyer if this is smart or insane.

So far, no car, no job, no sure place to live. But tomorrow my 12yo will wake me up by opening my door and singing to me. My 10yo will help me make dinner. My 7yo will read his book to me. Those will be the most important things in my day. Those will be the things that help me focus. They will continue to be my motivation to be the best mom I can be...no matter what...