not that girl

I tried to have you listen to this song once. You said it sounded like someone whining and boo hooing on the stage. Yep. She is.

The story goes, she is completely attracted to this guy. He's amazing, handsome, wonderful...everything she dreams of. He's already dating a beautiful, popular, perfect woman. A woman that she knows that she cannot hold a candle to. She is singing about KNOWING that he felt something for her...but realizing that he will never allow himself to be seen with her. She's less than perfect. She's not beautiful. She's smart and amazing in her own right...but not enough. She tries to remind herself that she needs to keep her heart in check. That she knows she can't wish for him, but she aches. Her reality is that he'll never allow himself to love her because she's not good enough.

I've always felt this way. I bawled when I saw this on stage because I've never identified SO strongly with a character EVER. I am Elphaba...The Wicked Witch of the West.

In my life, this "less than enough" persona follows me and haunts me. I don't need people to tell me it's not true. I don't need told it's "self fulfilling prophecy". I don't want told that I'm wrong. I know me. I know my life.

I just want to say, that I think you should have shown me the respect I deserved when I asked you to listen to this song.

I wanted you to hear it.



I chose to post a version without the vocals because the broadway version is not available on youtube.