it encompasses me
daily
when nothing
is at stake
but ordering a pizza
at it's height now
trying to break me
the voices
that say
I can't do this
haunt me
i have no luxury
to fail
i have no idea
how to do this
work
school
mom
i'm lonely
i'm scared
i pray
for direction
and strength
and wisdom
and peace
today
i'm scared
i'm sad
i'm nervous
my mind entertains
the "what ifs"
i know I cannot
endure
agh
for this brain
to work
in peace
with the soul
that wants to trust
i want to have faith
security
so much to consider
so little to do now
leaps of faith
they are called
i feel i was pushed
2 comments:
Leslie,
I read your post on fear and felt i needed to comment. Your natural self would say be afraid, and this is were you need to control your thoughts. You have the power to stop any negative thought that attempts to enter your mind. In a nano second, if a fearful or negative thought pops into your mind rebuke it, remind your mind who's running the show (GOD). At least it should be God and this is were the rubber hits the road. You can do this your way, which is the hard way and probably the wrong way or God's way. He knows were your at right now and how you got there. He also has a plan for the rest of your life, waiting to execute that plan at a moments notice. The question is: Are you going to follow orders! Keep your head up- "Looking to the Lord" Do not trust in your own strength.
It's in black and white see below.
Do you trust him?
Do you trust him?
Do you trust him?
2 Corinthians 12:10
That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Philippians 4
1Therefore, my brothers, you whom I love and long for, my joy and crown, that is how you should stand firm in the Lord, dear friends!
Exhortations
2I plead with Euodia and I plead with Syntyche to agree with each other in the Lord. 3Yes, and I ask you, loyal yokefellow,[a] help these women who have contended at my side in the cause of the gospel, along with Clement and the rest of my fellow workers, whose names are in the book of life.
4Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
Thanks for Their Gifts
10I rejoice greatly in the Lord that at last you have renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you have been concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
14Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles. 15Moreover, as you Philippians know, in the early days of your acquaintance with the gospel, when I set out from Macedonia, not one church shared with me in the matter of giving and receiving, except you only; 16for even when I was in Thessalonica, you sent me aid again and again when I was in need. 17Not that I am looking for a gift, but I am looking for what may be credited to your account. 18I have received full payment and even more; I am amply supplied, now that I have received from Epaphroditus the gifts you sent. They are a fragrant offering, an acceptable sacrifice, pleasing to God. 19And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
20To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
Final Greetings
21Greet all the saints in Christ Jesus. The brothers who are with me send greetings. 22All the saints send you greetings, especially those who belong to Caesar's household.
23The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit. Amen.[b
I gotta go, work to do.
Big Sexy
I know you are right. I know I need to trust God and it's been a struggle. I feel violated and bitter. I've been working on forgiveness as that has been an obstacle for me in my trust situation. I promise you that I am praying and trying to work through my issues. I want to do what's right. I want to believe everything will be ok. I continually remind myself that if something falls through, God has a different plan. It's been a huge test of faith for me. I can't say I'm always passing either. I can say that I'm trusting...taking it back...and retrusting constantly. I bob back and forth between needing to feel in control and self sufficient, and letting go and resting in assurances that God will take care of me.
I'm a believer in "praying and moving your feet". So, I have had quite a few things fall through or felt disappointed when I thought things were going God's way and it didn't work out. I won't sit idle because my sons need.
Fear has always captured me. No excuses. I know what I need to do and should do. Some days are easier than others.
I am so touched that you replied and took the great amount of effort and time to find such encouraging verses! Again, I cannot thank the friends that I have enough right now. Each one of you has stepped up in ways I couldn't even have asked for and God has used you all to show me that trusting Him works.
Thank you Dave...from the bottom of my heart.
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