I have an interview tomorrow. I am completely qualified for this job and feel I have a VERY great shot at getting it.
The problem is, I don't know how to do this. How do I pass up a full-time job with benefits? It's M-F, daylight.
My kids have a few weeks left of school. What do I do then? How do I leave them here, day after day, alone while I work?
Do I stick them in daycare? Jeeze, Caleb is 12!
Yeah, maybe we could stay in the house if I took a real job. But to what cost? I'd always only be qualified for this type of job and I would have to forgo my chance at an education. Getting an education would mean I could be home with my boys still for at least another two years.
Cl told me once, that the worst part about her parents divorcing was that it made her mom have to work and it took her away from her when she needed her the most.
I'm praying. I spent almost 3 hours with Pastor Ron @ Cornerstone today.
Everything seems so huge right now and I don't want to mess up anymore. I want to get it right.
He said to me..."How do you eat an elephant?...ONE BITE AT A TIME!"
I just don't know which bite to take...or how much I can chew.
I want to make the best choices and I feel I'm failing more than thriving.
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I think I would have not used the elephant example. I would have said "How do you fork an entire yard? One fork at a time! Unforking believable!"
Hope I made you smile.
"iciping" - my word verification of the day. What's it mean? Icing that's popping up? Perhaps a cold ping? Mr. Webster of dictionary fame is probably rolling over right now.........
Nah. Must be a french word.......
I say, go to the interview, see how it goes. Don't stress out about a situation that isn't even definite yet. (I'm very good at giving this advice, but very bad at following it myself - trust me.) After you have the job offer, do the old fashion, make a list routine. I had to do that this year when I went back to work. It was a difficult decision for me, but one of the best things that could have happened to our family.
As far as daycare...what about a college student looking for summer work? Cheaper than daycare, and the kids could be in their own home instead of a strange place. Something to think about anyway.
Good idea on the college student. With Seton Hill just around the corner, it's a possibility.
ES...you must not have talked with Wendi last night. ;)
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