my mind swirls
intentions questioned
hearts torn
lives shattered

answers finding
life blinding
direction seeking
time fading

intensity heightened
release foolish
insanity creeping
depression grabbing

another diversion
friendly arousal
honesty taken
love never trusted

beating chests
battered brows
painful memories
giddy escape

help stops
alone always
lonely nights
overwhelming days

when
when

more happiness
when

resolve
when

answers
when

afraid of it all