is anybody out there

i wonder where my "friends" went

disappeared with everyone else

blown off

not invited

ignored

people are uncomfortable now

they don't know to interact with me

i am still me

but no one notices



so i'm even more alone than ever

i have my sons

and i'm not sure i'm doing them any favors

at this point

i'm not much of a mom anymore

i go to school

i shop

i do laundry

i barely cook

i barely clean

i have no days off

i have no friends left

i love my boys

it's not their job

to fill those voids

hell with "voids"

they are "chasms"

part of me is angry

at all who chose to leave me behind

part of me knew it would happen

and truly isn't surprised



but no one knows how lonely it is

to be told one thing

and treated another way

with conditions

and things left unresolved



maybe i'm just feeling sorry for myself


but i am, without a doubt, quite alone